An Open Letter to Ms. Lea Grace Madjehong

Dear Ms. Lea Grace Madjehong,

Hi! It’s a bit odd. Ang hirap simulan at di ko alam kung paano simulan (pero kailangan). I have to do this. There something I want you to know. 🙂

Di ko alam kung ito ang tamang panahon (o hindi) para ipaabot sa’yo ang bagay na ‘to. Iniisip ko, it’s too early. Pero naisip ko rin baka balang araw it would be too late. At ayoko rin na pagsisihan balang araw na hindi ko sinubukan at hindi ako nagsabi sa’yo (that I’ve been too coward).

Alam kong medyo busy ka sa maraming bagay-bagay particularly palapit na ng palapit ang licensure exam nyo. At ayoko sanang dumadag sa mga iniisip mo. Because I wish you to pass that exam. It’s for yourself and your family. I do pray for that. Kayang kaya mo yun, tamang review lang. I wish you success on whichever career path you take. Para mas matulungan mo  balang araw ang mga magulang at mga kapatid mo.

You’re the eldest among your siblings, at sa ating nakasanayan na kultura, I understand that you have a moral obligation to them. They look on you as an exemplar. I know you’re a good role model to them already because you’re very calm. That’s one of the things I really like about you. Maliban pa sa mga ngiti mo na parang araw (because it brightens up my day).

Di ko alam kung ano tong pinaggagawa ko. Very strange. Pero walang namang mawawala. Bahala na.

I’ve been withholding myself on this. Saka ko na lang sana sabihin sa’yo ito pag nakatapos na ako at may maayos na trabaho. Para financially stable na ako. Alam mo naman dependent pa ako sa family ko. In short, when everything is sorted out with my messed up life. Saka para mas adult pa sana ako  na maghandle ng mga situations, but I don’t know and I’m afraid how life might turn around. I don’t want to make regrets someday, that I didn’t try. Kaya ito kakainin ko muna ang hiya ko.

I want you to know that you found a place in my heart.

And it’s growing over time.

Habang nakikilala kita, narealize ko, ikaw yung standard ko. Back then, wala akong pakialam sa ganap ng buhay. Now, I’m trying to cope up working on fixing things up because of you. Hoping na balang araw may “tayo.”

I’m really thankful to God that he allowed me to meet such a beautiful soul like you.

Lea, I love you.

I really do.

I have seen so much of this harsh world that I don’t usually say those words. I’m afraid I might give it to the wrong person. Though it might not be the right time because I’m broke and I have nothing. Pero this time, I’m sure of this and I have to say it to you.

I do hope na magkaroon din ako ng lugar sa puso mo. And we could work together for a better future. Either way, please let me know. At kung wala man, sana di ka magbago sa pakikitungo sa akin.

“I get weak in the knees; and I lose my breath
Oh I try to speak but the words won’t come
I’m so scared to death
And when you smile the world turns upside down
Whenever you come around.”

These lyrics of a country song best describe my situation. Kaya pasensya ka na kung sa ganitong paraan ako nagsabi sa’yo, it’s just that I’m not used to this kind of stuff

I love you, more than words can ever say. (Hugs hugs)

Sincerely yours,

Mike Ople D.

(Sana mabasa mo ito. Sa mga makakabasa nito, pakiabot na lang din sa kanya.)

P.S. Meron nga pala akong kino-compile na LEA online reviewer para sa’yo. Pero konti pa ang laman, alam mo naman mabagal ako magtype. 🙂 Pwede mo mabisita dito: Agriculturists Licensure Exam Reviewers

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